miss this..

{ Friday, January 8, 2010 6:30 PM }

whoever knew that i would look back.
and miss soooo much of it all.
im really bringing myself down.
and i really don't like that.
i should be happy right?
i just miss him.
:(
i miss how everything used to be so great.
nearly perfect in my eyes.
i miss how we used to talk every single day.
every minute of the day.
i miss how we always called each other
by our nicknames.
i miss how you used to hug me everyday.
i miss how you called me every night.
and talk so long into the night.
i miss how i could just say that im so lucky
to have you as my best friend.
i miss how we used to be so close.
i miss how i meant so much to you.
i miss how you were so scared of hurting me.
i miss you.
so much.

now things are so different.
you hardly even text me.
you don't even give me a hug anymore.
you don't even say hi when we're with other people.
you barely say anything to me anymore.
you dont tell me anything anymore.
you act like everything we had was never important.
feels liek you don't even care.
things have changed so much.
and i can't let go of it.
i wish i could, i really do.
but i don't understand how i can think about it so much
but then you don't even care.
but then you have ur own problems.
and im here to help you get through them.
but you won't even let that happen.

im being really ridiculous.
im holding onto nothing.
i just want you back.
i want my best friend back.
even if after all the things we went through.
from the point of ur ex gf telling me to stay away from you
and to the night i fell for you.
to the last time you told me u loved me.
i don't care if we have to go through
that phase of liking each other.
i just want my best friend back.
i want what we had back.
i want you back.
:(